sick

HELP!!!!!!! i am sick!!!!! fever n cough, missing zzk , im maybe staying at home for 1 week no!!!!!!!!!!!! on this coming sat is that im going my mum there, but i cant??agust(dont know how to spell) of 4 , is my mums death day! one year has past , how i miss her. its like i blink my eyes, but i dont belive, why god dont ever give her more time??? one last good bye also cant even a sorry word! y ! y god dont ever give me more time in every thing i do ! y! even shes not here but i belive she will rip! ok ? who will <3 me till the very end?who will hold me? -_-